"You are really well educated." Not that perception but that vocabulary? That was something else. Where in the world did they educate Handmaidens? "I do not disagree with you, I really don't. But Qui-Gon is absolutely not going to do anything to help me and I have got to get Anakin and Shmi out of here. If that means not fighting one more Master, so be it. If it helps at all, I am mad as kriffing hell about it."
Once again Padme's carefully schooled expression faltered, but this time a small, proud smile crossed her face before she managed to get her reaction to the compliment under control.
And it was easy, because there was something that nagged at Padme in Obi-Wan's response.
The smile, small as it was, was pretty charming. Bits of personality shining through the role and that was a lovely thing.
But then there was the question, which was not.
"He was the Master I argued with and who went back to the Jedi while I opted to stay." Then there was the part where Qui-Gon hadn't wanted him to start with. "It isn't a lot of history, to be honest. At least not in the grand scheme of things."
Padme was horrified. She was not much older now than Obi-Wan had been when he went through this. She couldn't imaging being left alone, with no resources, no help, in the middle of a war.
"But it was a formable history. That specific moment shaped the rest of your life."
And this was making her question her total faith in the Jedi who were helping her.
"Enough so for me not to have forgotten him," he says, tone dry as he remembers that initial argument. It was - and is - complicated, and there's no need for him to sort it out right now. There may never be. He really just wants Anakin out of here. The rest doesn't matter to him nearly as much - or really at all. "I'm sorry for complicating your purpose, here."
Padme felt compelled to say more- something comforting, but nothing really came to mind. She knew she couldn't make any promises, even if she wanted to so badly. She hated seeing all this suffering. And she hated being so powerless.
She knew she couldn't say the first thing that came to mind. And she hated that, too.
"We do need to leave as soon as possible and continue our journey to Coruscant. Naboo is counting on... us to... advocate on their behalf. We need to get help for Naboo. I'm sorry we can't stay to truly help. But any way we can help you, if there is a way to help you, I'll see to it to get you that help."
"Just do what you can to get someone back here for Anakin and his mom." He doesn't want sympathy, he doesn't want saved. He just wants Anakin and Shmi out of here.
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Date: 2020-07-12 06:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-07-16 05:49 am (UTC)And it was easy, because there was something that nagged at Padme in Obi-Wan's response.
"You and Master Jinn have a history, don't you?"
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Date: 2020-07-17 10:30 am (UTC)But then there was the question, which was not.
"He was the Master I argued with and who went back to the Jedi while I opted to stay." Then there was the part where Qui-Gon hadn't wanted him to start with. "It isn't a lot of history, to be honest. At least not in the grand scheme of things."
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Date: 2020-07-24 01:37 am (UTC)"But it was a formable history. That specific moment shaped the rest of your life."
And this was making her question her total faith in the Jedi who were helping her.
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Date: 2020-07-26 04:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-07-29 05:08 am (UTC)She knew she couldn't say the first thing that came to mind. And she hated that, too.
"We do need to leave as soon as possible and continue our journey to Coruscant. Naboo is counting on... us to... advocate on their behalf. We need to get help for Naboo. I'm sorry we can't stay to truly help. But any way we can help you, if there is a way to help you, I'll see to it to get you that help."
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Date: 2020-07-30 05:44 am (UTC)